It’s me again.
Since you and I have this agreement that we will have truthful conversations with each other,
Can I just say…
Did you ever have a day like that, Lord? A day when fretting just seemed to be the ideal response to life?
Yeah. I bet you did.
But I also bet you didn’t do the fretting.
How did you do that? That whole not fretting thing.
I mean, really.
When I try and imagine you walking on the shores of Galilee in your sandals fretting…
Wringing you hands in worry about not having enough fish for everybody to eat,
whining about the people you work with…disciples who can’t get their acts together, especially Peter who just won’t stop talking,
hiding under the burlap covers wishing you could stay in bed all day because the next 12 hours just seemed to be filled with too much responsibility…
Well, that just doesn’t even compute.
Can’t get my head around it.
You never fretted.
Your heart was always calm and your mind was clear. (Except for that one time you flipped the tables over in the temple…I don’t think you were calm that day…but it wasn’t a fretting lack of calmness… you had good reason for doing what you did.)
And you know, I don’t think your I’m not fretting today decision ever had anything to do with willpower or making to-do lists or just going to the happy place in your head.
We learn that from your friends who knew you. Those who wrote down what they observed.
Mark says that Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.
And Dr. Luke tells us that Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.
I guess you chose not to focus on your list of things to fret about.
You focused on your Father.
You took time to pray.
Rather than looking at all the things that could make you miserable on earth,
You looked to The One who knew exactly what you needed and would then give those things to you.
Things like direction, love, hope, reassurance, companionship, peace.
Or should I say, Lesson reminded.
Let’s start this day over again.
Good morning, Lord.
It’s me again.
Thank you for today.
Thank you loving me.
Thank you for giving me all the strength I need to keep moving through today.
Thank you for giving me the peace that replaces my fretting.
Thank you for meeting me…just where I am.