So I had two dreams last night…weird ones.
In the first dream, I was participating in a potato peeling contest. (Who even knew they existed!) The other contestants and I sat at long tables in a large conference room. We each had two potatoes, a peeler, and a bowl in front of us. When the guy up front shouted “Go!”, we started peeling. Furiously.
Now let me just say, I may not know how to baste a turkey, but I can peel potatoes! But a contest? Good grief.
In my dream, I was the fastest peeler. (Yea! I wish you could take pictures of your dreams and post them on Instagram or Facebook because the purple ribbon looked really great.) Then they announced there would be another round of peeling, but I woke up before that contest ended. (Insert sad face here because my peeling hands were flying.)
I went back to sleep and my second dream started. It had me in New York City with a group of business colleagues. (I didn’t know any of them.) We were scheduled to meet with a potential client. But one of our team members got sick. Half the group decided to go to the client meeting, and the other half decided to help our sick colleague find the hotel. I stood on the NYC sidewalk and watched one group go left and the other group go right. I was torn – wanting to help my sick colleague, and wanting to be at the meeting. But instead of making a choice, I just stood there. Minutes later I realized I didn’t know where the meeting was, or where the hotel was. I was lost on the sidewalk. And not helpful to either group.
I’m sure there is a whole lot of stuff in there that some dream experts would enjoy exploring.
I woke up feeling unsettled, wondering what on earth was going on in my brain. Clearly, the feelings of needing to get things done, frustration of not making a decision, and feeling lost still stuck with me after I got up and made the bed and brushed my teeth. Unsettling anxiety is what I’d call it.
Then I read Psalm 94:19…”When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Synapses started to wake up in my brain and I realized how I could settle the unsettled.
Here’s my ah-ha…
There are times when I just feel like I’m going in circles. (Sometimes, literally wandering around the house aimlessly for a few moments, trying to just stop my brain from moving so fast so I can focus more clearly.) There’s lots to do … lots to think about … lots of things that need prayer … and they all hit my heart and mind at the same time. Know what I mean?
When those busy-mind times arrive, I was reminded this morning that I need to FIRST focus on The One who is bigger than all the stuff. Focusing on the issues gets me side-tracked and raises my heart rate because I’m trying to figure it all out and fix it on my own.
So when David says in Psalm 94 that God’s consolation will bring joy to my soul…that’s where I start.
But here’s the deal…
I need to invite God into my anxiety—invite that consolation, that comfort. I need to stop trying and stop fixing and stop thinking about the stuff. Turn my attention and focus toward Him. His consolation then brings me to a place where my mind and heart slow down, work becomes clearer, and decisions are easier to make.
I am guessing that you’ve had moments like this, when everything is jumbled in your brain and your heart is a little anxious. Join me in Psalm 94? Invite and let God bring His consolation into your soul. Perhaps it can be as simple as saying (over and over and over again), “Lord please comfort me today. That you for settling me.”
We are loved by a God who is bigger than any of our stuff … any of our unsettling anxiety. We are loved by a God who WANTS to walk with us, carry us, wrap His arms around us. Take care of us. I am so very, very grateful for this.
My day is more settled now. I feel His comfort.
(By the way, if you hear of any potato peeling contests, let me know, OK? I guess I’m pretty good at that.)