I love fresh starts.
If I don’t like what I’m writing, I hit the delete key and start again.
If my hair is having a bad day, my comb winds its way through and I start again.
If my hamburger dish doesn’t turn out…well, I just throw that out.
The thing about fresh starts is this …
At some point, we have to change our response to what’s cringing, disappointing, or frustrating before we can start again. Right? Continuing to stay with what’s not working, staying in the messy, doesn’t get us to a better place. And making that change, my friend, is all up to you. Up to me.
This morning I started out on the wrong side of the bed. Before my feet hit the ground, I was miserable … my mind racing with disappointments, fears, and fatigue. A few hours into the day and I was Grumpy Gaye. (Oh, so pleasant to be around.)
There’s a certain satisfaction that can come from those grumpy moments though, isn’t there? In our minds, we silently have the conversations that tell us we are justified with our frustration or disappointment. That we are right, and the other person is most certainly wrong. That life is miserable because we are faced with annoyances.
So about three hours into today, I decided that staying in the cringing, hurtful, miserable place I was in was not fun and not productive and was making my day even worse. I recognized that my spirit was really out of synch with The One Who Loves Me Most, and my behaviors and thoughts were sinful. Time to do a little heart cleaning and start again.
I opened my Bible and read Psalm 139:23-24…
“Search me, O God, and know my heart [such a scary prayer!]; test me and know my anxious thoughts [inviting Him to understand what’s really going on inside me]. See if there is any offensive way in me [Ooftah, there certainly is], and lead me in the way everlasting [Thank you for Your forgiveness].”
Then I read Psalm 32:1-52 (MSG)… LOVE THIS!
“Count yourself lucky, how happy you must be – you get a fresh start, your slate’s wiped clean.
Count yourself lucky – God holds nothing against you and you’re holding nothing back from him.
When I kept it all inside, my bones turned to powder, my words became daylong groans. The pressure never let up; all the juices of my life dried up.
Then I let it all out; I said, ‘I’ll make a clean breast of my failures to God.’
Suddenly the pressure was gone – my guilt dissolved, my sin disappeared.”
What time is it where you’re at? 11:00 am? 3:25 pm? 9:36 pm? 2:13 am?
No matter the time, you and I can choose to change our reaction to the cringing, disappointing, and frustrating. Our situation may not have changed, but how we are responding to it looks completely different. We can choose to start again, wrapped in God’s grace, mercy, and forgiveness. We can get our hearts right with Him. Right now.
Let’s not waste the next hour or the rest of the day dwelling in our own misery or self-righteousness or hurts.
Let’s deal with them. Ask God to meet us in them.
Let’s make a fresh start.
P.S. May I encourage you to read the entire chapter of Psalm 32? The MSG version really spoke to me. Blessings on your heart, my friend.