I’ve been looking at the cursor on a blank page, wondering how to put into words what’s tossing like a salad in my brain.
Let me give it a try…
Sometimes I worry that my little notes here will seem trite, or too Pollyannaish. That skeptics will chuckle and their doubts will be affirmed rather than hearing an invitation to re-think or ponder God-things more deeply. That my own faith and lack of faith don’t have the credibility to talk about such important things like God and Grace and Forgiveness.
At the same time, my heart wants to encourage and strengthen and bring Hope. I feel compelled to share what I’m learning, where I’m falling short, where I’m growing…knowing that I am one of a gazillion thinking and feeling this way. I want to hear and share our faith stories because they matter and if we don’t each share our stories, those around us miss out.
And then I get that ah-ha moment.
Isn’t that what so many of us Christ-followers wrestle with?
We don’t think we know enough. We haven’t read the Bible enough. Our faith journey is filled with detours, potholes, and rest stops that are closed for the season. Our lives are so very messy.
At the same time, we love Jesus. We want to be His hands and feet. We want others to know about The One Who Never Fails Us. We want to share how His mercy and grace and peace change our lives when He meets us in our messy.
But how do we invite others to get to know God when we still struggle with our own RSVP?
How do we reconcile our doubts with sharing his promises?
I am reminded of two things…
God’s promises never change. My emotions and doubts will never ever change what He says in His Word. I cannot confuse my questions with His truth. His promises will be kept. He is faithful always.
God does not call us to share His story because we are perfect. He calls us to share His story by telling our stories. We share our faith learnings and our messy-to-peace moments and our stories connect to other hearts. Our stories take the hands of others and say, Come with me. We’ll get there together.
God invites us to get to know Him. Spend time with Him. Grasp what He has promised.
And He asks us to show up. To tell our stories.
And He takes it from there.
I’m going to keep moving the cursor on this white page filling with black ink.
I’m going to keep getting to know this Amazing God and His promises – because I want to.
I’m going to keep showing up – because it matters.
Will you join me?